Sunday, 16 October 2011

Chapter 6: Weakening

Chapter 6: Weakening

Dear Bella,

February. Valentine's Day and the first anniversary of your arrival in Forks. Not that I can really celebrate. I'm in Mexico, on Victoria's trail, trying to follow her down to Brazil. Stupid sunshine is making things difficult.

The longer I go, the more unbearable my loneliness becomes. Alice is right; I can't keep this up for much longer. I have to be determined that you deserve a better life if I stand any chance of making it through the rest of the 60 odd years ahead of me. Once you leave this world, Bella, life will have no more meaning. I will be right behind you. Though we can never meet again.

You will undoubtedly go to heaven; you have always been so kind and selfless. I, on the other hand, am a soulless monster who deserves nothing less than the torment that is waiting for me in hell. I don't care what Carlisle says.

Probably you are with someone new by now. Jacob, most likely, but then, what do I know about the way your brain works? It could just as easily be Mike or Eric or even Tyler; any of the boys in your class really. You are so beautiful, you can take your pick.

I hope you find a nice Valentine. I am sorry it can never be me.

All my love for eternity (you still have my heart, remember).

Edward

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